date: Sunday, July 19, 2009 @ 1:37 am
title: forgiveness
If you know what I am thinking...
I will "ta-han" hahahaha. forgiveness is the first beatitude that is about our relationship with the people around us. We need to be big people with big heart.
That's why.. "some people need some more time to hope for a glimpse of some change for some period of time."
It is about making choices:
make good choices = good consequences
make bad choices = bad consequences.
And being responsible is about paying the consequence for the choices we make in life. Noone is perfect. so we will make mistakes. And when mistakes are made, sometimes it affects not just yourself but the people around you. And you need to own up to it and apologize or maybe you feel you are the victim side, then you need to forgive.
And it will happen. cos life, somethings just happens. and when it does. you gotta choose your responses.
That's why. sometimes. I will ta-han. but if it crosses tipping point. I will not ta-han. And if I dun remember wrongly I only lose my temper twice in my whole life as in explosion effect kind. my word will tear the person apart and literally break the soul of the person apart. And after I did that. I regretted cos it crossed the point of no return. the person... hmmmm.. was in bad shape. pretty bad. And I learnt my lesson.
That's why we need to learn from life lessons and remember them. Not in guilt and shame, but a reminder of whatever we do, we do it with faith, hope and love.
maturity is about taking responsibility even at times, it is not your fault. Seriously.. if you tell me you are Jesus-wannabe. You got to do what He did for us on the cross. not like hang up there, but the prayer He said, "forgave them for they do not know what they are doing."
However, many a times, we know that we did something wrong. But we choose otherwise and it will result in our conscious being eroded by the world value system of "its alright la." then when you need to give an account to Jesus before you gain access to heaven, you have no other choice but to be truthful. too bad. made a wrong move. bye.
Think about it. that' why we gotta live life in fear and trembling. not those bad kinds but positive ones that will keep you away from hurting people and hurting yourself and your relationship with God. I believe in forgiveness, but mercy is at God's hand. I believe in apologizing, but conviction is between you and God. Noone can help you. You gotta to make that choice.
Reminder: bad response leads to bad attitude, that leads to a series of bad choices in life, that leads to unfulfilled destiny, that leads to F9 in your life on earth at the end of the day. God is a good God. He gives you time to change but if you dun want to.. and people warned you about it and you just refuses, den you "take care"
Hahahaha. That's why think before you do anything. You dun want to regret after that. Cos a person's attitude determines his/her altitude. You may think you are right, but maybe you are wrong.
That's why if you play the blame game. you are gamed to lose. But if you play the "ta-han" game, you are gamed to win. beat it! :D
date: Friday, July 10, 2009 @ 12:01 am
title: Calculating
For the past few days, I have been getting dreams after dreams. Good ones and bad ones. The more I dream, the more I see "secrets". Quite fun. Gotta to write it down, when it comes to pass. Then I saw people I saw it coming in my dreams.
Been evalutaing myself as a person, a friend, a leader, a son. I look at my own report card. it failed pretty bad. Maybe its those days that I think too much that I overdrove my brain. After the fall of Man, we have been using only 3% of our brain's full potential. Even if you are a gifted, you use only 10%. I'm not sure how many percent I used, but I know one things for sure. I had brain cramps. so bad that I feel sick just thinking. Not H1N1.
As a person: How's my relationship with God? How's my relationship with people? How's my finances doing? How current am I?
As a friend: How in touch am I with them? How much I know how they are? How much time I take aside to keep them in prayers?
As a leader: How much am I a chief feeder? How much am I a chief leader? How responsible am I?
As a son: How much am I carrying the burden of my spiritual parent and parents?
And I realised. You cannot measure up to the standards. It is sky high. But you can measure up according to my faith - expectations. I came to notice that as my expectations of myself goes on notch, I start to enjoy life more. My self-esteem gets better. My self-image becomes clearer. My self-motivation is at gear 5.
What is life without evaluating yourself? You are bluffing yourself.
Anyway some secrets are best kept as secrets. Time will tell. My white-turned-yellow pages will be my witness. Back to work.
date: Monday, July 06, 2009 @ 6:40 pm
title: New Skin
Enough of kept falling emo-iness. black and white days are over!
